Dissapointed Hopes

It seems like life is really terrible for me right now. I guess when I really look at things they aren't the worst that they could be, but I still am in a state of uncertainty. Maybe that's you. Maybe it's not. All I know is that no matter what happens God is in control. Last night I had a dream that I was walking along, and then caught in a net and taken. The real fear that hit me hard was the fact that someday we will all have to appear before the judgement seat of God. We may be able to hide all the bad things that we have done from everyone else, but we cannot hide them from God. Which ties into the events that have happened to me in these last two days. The reality that we are walking on a thin sheet of ice over either eternal life or, eternal death is really something to contemplate. Most definately I want to have Jesus as Lord and Savior of my life. There is no time when it is more important to make that choice than right now friend. You see, right now may be all that you have, so please choose to let Jesus be Lord and Savior of your life, He promises that He will recieve you with open arms if you will just let Him into your heart. Lately God has been working with me on being honest with Him. He wants me to tell Him the truth about what has been going on in my life, and I believe that its the same way for you the reader. He wants to be apart of your life right now, but if you will not let Him, then you will miss out on all the great things that He has in store for you. Like Joshua, choose this day whom you will serve, but as for me and my house, we will serve the Lord. I believe that it has never been more important, and as the time of the end escalates, I am faced with the ever increasing reality that someday soon, everything that we have on this earth is going to meet it's firey end. There are no exceptions, if we hold onto something that we think is "fun" that God does not want us to have, then we are keeping Him at a distance from us, and that is not what He wants. Many of us are so satisfied with the life that we live and are content and distracted by the things that present themselves to us. For example, I got caught playing computer games all night, and then the computer errored up, so I went to bed. God wants honesty, and He can't get it until we are honest with Him. When we are dishonest with God it causes confusion in our relationship with Him. In Isaiah 29:10-13 we read: "10 The LORD has brought over you a deep sleep:
He has sealed your eyes (the prophets
he has covered your heads (the seers).
For you this whole vision is nothing but words sealed in a scroll. And if you give the scroll to someone who can read, and say to him, "Read this, please," he will answer, "I can't; it is sealed." Or if you give the scroll to someone who cannot read, and say, "Read this, please," he will answer, "I don't know how to read." The Lord says:
"These people come near to me with their mouth
and honor me with their lips,
but their hearts are far from me.
Their worship of me
is made up only of rules taught by men.



God wants us to be honest with Him, otherwise the Bible will be to us like a sealed book. We will never come to know the author and finisher of our faith until we are honest with Him about how we feel and our situation. This is how we connect with God, then we can be ready for His advice and instruction in the way that we should go. We need to be humble and teachable, and we all are capable of that, there is no excuse, it just may take some longer than others. I know this to be the case for myself especially, it takes me a long time to come to that place and a lot of discipline from the Lord, because I am a stubborn human, but please know that the Lord loves us, and that is why He disciplines us. In Hebrews 12 Paul Says:

"Endure hardship as discipline; God is treating you as sons. For what son is not disciplined by his father? If you are not disciplined (and everyone undergoes discipline), then you are illegitimate children and not true sons. Moreover, we have all had human fathers who disciplined us and we respected them for it. How much more should we submit to the Father of our spirits and live! Our fathers disciplined us for a little while as they thought best; but God disciplines us for our good, that we may share in his holiness. No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it. Therefore, strengthen your feeble arms and weak knees. "Make level paths for your feet," so that the lame may not be disabled, but rather healed.